
Photo/Jonathan Saunders
I got my first flame and I wear it like a purple heart.
Jonathan Saunders commenting on my blog:
"haha, i love the advertising photographer ($ making, family supporting, nice lifestyle), starting the ball rolling in complaining about having to hear the struggles of those less fortunate then he, thomas, if its so offensive to you to hear the struggles of others, don't read it, i have dropped reading you regularly as your constant bragging is equally annoying as those that bitch. so this was the perfect thread to create, a backhanded insult to other photographers not as successful as you disguised again as a chance to brag.
if this blog was to be another tool for you to pimp yourself, make it that way and leave it that way, don't piss on others to further yourself."
I just started shooting again when I first met Jonathan. It was after the temping/nanny period but before I figured out how to make a living as a photographer.We met at a photo group and I assisted for him a few times. My wife and I refereed to him simply as "the genius". As in , who was that on the phone? Answer: The Genius.
His pictures were a mix of the best of Richard Morgenstein and Dan Winters. I always struggled with the basics of composition and lighting. Invariably in my photographs there would be a pole sticking out of a guy’s head or a harsh shadow I didn't know how to get rid of. Somehow he always made it look easy.
Since I was a kid people have always said I was obsessed with photography but I was like a hobbyist compared to Jonathan. He was always taking pictures, or looking a pictures or talking about them.
I am amazed as anyone by the limited success I have had. When my wife tells people I am a photographer there is an awkward pause as if they are waiting for her to say "but he works in a office during the day '. As if being a photographer is like being a modern dancer, poet or potter. You certainly can't support four children doing it.
I lost a monster campaign a couple years ago. I had shot it twice before and felt it was mine. I felt the other photographer was a hack (he was not) and had under bid the job (he had not).I had been wronged and robbed! For months I was full of anger and resentment. It affected my relationship with my family, friends and rep. It was not pretty.
Years before during the "temping years" I was often broke. Extremely broke. When I met my wife she was on food stamps and we all agreed I married up. I had a friend who was a messenger and we would hang out at Mel's diner on
Lombard at night. I would order water and hope he would order a milkshake. He would drink the part in the glass and slide the extra bit that came in the metal container across the table to me. It cost $4.25.
When I measure my progress from where I started I have no option but to stand in awe. When I compare myself to where I think I should be I tend to spend my time complaining and see every interaction as a slight.
I wish I could report that I spend all my time thinking about that milkshake and not the monster that got away. But that would be a lie. Wouldn't it?